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( voice phone: +43-1-8928997 =ReeBoK= reebok@eleet.iddc.via.at )
\ Severin-Stephan Kittl - Hollergasse 27/19 - A-1150 Vienna/Austria /
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Welcome to my 4th poetry file in 1996. It includes some poetry and lyrics
from me written or finished in the last time. All written words are (c) 1996
by Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK) and have not to be republished in any way
without a written permission of the author!
At the end of this file you will find 3 German poems, my first try into
German poetry. For those who can read (only?) German...
I entitle this collection " abstract " ...
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besides
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(c) 19.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
by strange illusion
she is sitting beside me
besides I drunk too much
by strange feelings
she is sitting
besides she is an illusion
by strange taste
she is kissing me
from beside
by strange emotion
she is watching me
from the wrong side
by strange memories
she was kissing me
besides she didn't know
by strange vision
I am sitting beside myself
besides reality
by strange truth
I was leaving myself
besides that all
I have gone mad
all beside my life
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she was kissing me
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(c) 19.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
she said "taste me"
and I kissed her
and she was kissing me
and I said "tastes good"
by kissing her
and she said "don't stop"
and I said "never"
and kissed her again
and she was kissing me
and I kissed her face
and she said "I love you"
by kissing me
while I thought "I don't love you"
but she said "kiss me"
and I said "sure"
but I thought "I don't want to"
by kissing her
and she was kissing me
and I said "bye"
and she was watching me
and then she cried
.oOo.....................................................................oOo.
calling intelligence
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(c) 19.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
names
numbers
1 - 2 - 3
letters
formed words
and names
followed by numbers
sorted
and registered
places
streets
and avenues
small and big
cities
towns
and villages
and some in bolt
doctors
engineers
workers
simple people
or studied minds
white, black, yellow,
red and I don't know
from here
and far away
some known
most never seen
all together
but each for itself
without ranking
but still in order
unprejudieced
and without fear
and then you see
you even can learn
how it should be
by reading
the phonebook
.oOo.....................................................................oOo.
23:23
~~~~~
(c) 19.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
23:23
just numbers?
just time!
it's late
this side of the globe
I should already sleep
but I'm thinking
'bout the things
that happened today
23:23
11:23 pm you may say
at your place
but it's not too late
to remember
the things
that happened today
red light is breaking in
into the halfdark room
digital numbers
in a digital time
to make me think
'bout the moments
that happened today
took me by surprise
some by anger
others with smile
23:24
11:24 pm you think now
another minute passed
but this one will be remembered
everytime you read this
good night
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between
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(c) 20.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
golden touch, your life a lie
couldn't learn, but tried to fly
tried to like the world, the whole
but destroyed instead a doll
some alcohole to clean the wounds
maybe to much, see moons moons moons
black on white just turned it over
hated lonelyness without a lover
a book with pages written full
no hype - drugs sucks - no hype, not cool
a freezing smell from outdoors side
'bout what you're proud, what is pride
a flower frozen deep in ice
you like to hear and waste your lies
the bottle empty, world by delay
still on your way and still astray
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don't get me wrong
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(c) 17.+20.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
I believe in a lot of things, and then I don't
I have different views in different moments
the things I say make a different sense
when you would know the meanings I hence
I know what I want, and then I deny
sometimes I know, sometimes I don't know why
I may hate life, but then I find it tough
I can take it for serious, and next time I laugh
you may call me weird, I say that's my name
that's how I feel it, that's how I am
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I've been fanciful
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(c) 20.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
I've been standing up
by sundowning
I've been living
by night
I've been dreaming
by moonlight
I've been sleeping
by the morning
I've been freezing
by sunlight
I've been ill
by health
I've been swearing
by lie
I've been living
by illusion
I've been waking up
by accident
I've been hiding
by life
I've been drunken
by feelings
I've been seeing you
by memories
I've been lost
by myself
I've been talking
by misunderstanding
I've been crying
by heartbreak
and then I've been found
by you
.oOo.....................................................................oOo.
to near to touch
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(c) 29.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
I am sitting on my bed
I am dreaming with open eyes
dreaming of love
the eternal love
seems so near
but I can't touch it
I can't touch it
it's so near
but so far away
the love
the eternal love
while I am sitting here
dreaming with open eyes
you are sitting there
it seems so near
but I can't touch you
I can't touch you
your're so near
but you're so far away
like my love
my eternal love
you are my love
my eternal love
eternal love
love
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my eyes
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(c) 29.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
colors
shapes
shadows
blue sky
green gras
and flowers
in all colors
it is good to see them
it is good to know them
and it is hard to miss them
I am watching them
but how long will I have time to
to see the world is important
I saw it all my life
it is good to see it
it is good to know it
and it would be really hard to miss it
I wonder how long it takes
since you forget all the things you saw
I don't want to miss it all
I don't want to miss it
I don't want to
I don't want
don't want
no!
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panic
~~~~~
(c) 29.Feb 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
did you ever feel the walls closing it
and you saw no escape
in the room without doors
where you entered
but never came out
did you ever feel the snow freezing your face
and you saw no goals
in the white painted winterlandscape
where you walked through
but never came out
did you ever see the sun burning your eyes
and you saw no dark point
on the sky without clouds
where you've been flying through
but never came out
did you ever fear the dark night
been lying alone in your bed
and dreaming your nightmares
where you've been haunting through
but never came out
did you
did you ever feel panic
panic!
real panic!
did you
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3 times sicker than 2 times before
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(c) 1.March 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
making friends
shaking hands
but depends
on common sense
what a life
who'll arive
kids and wife
are open knifes
fucking game
in Gods name
who's to blame
always the same
life aint fun
know that one
take a gun
life is done
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misunderstanding
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(c) 5.March 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
everything I said was misunderstood
everytime I told it
mistaken
all my life
misunderstood
like talking in the woods
dedicated
to my life
makes no sense
like talking to false friends
cruzify
death of life
start to pray
like talking the wrong day
everything I said was misunderstood
everytime I told it
everything I thought confused me
everytime I tried it
Shut up man!
Shut up!
I can't hear it anymore!
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where time stood still
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(c) 5.March 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
several foreigners
have been standing
infront of a cross
it was definatly not to hear
what they've been talking about
suddenly a man in white cloth
reached around bread and wine
the strangers have all
been eating and drinking of it
when finally a man focused me
and said:
"welcome to the eternity"
then I realized the first time
that I must be dead
I entered the land
where time stood still
and became a stranger
myself
.oOo.....................................................................oOo.
midsummer somewhere somewhen
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(c) 5.March 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
gentle tripples the horse
"nice flowers" Mrs. Meyers says
a child pleasant infront of the house playes
a cat is hunted by a dog
and Peter is sitting on the roof
a midsummer evening somewhere somewhen
Peter with his guitar on the roof is sitting
a gentle horse in circles tripples around
the flowers this evening smell well
and a dog is lying under the big tree sleepy
the child refuses not to go to bed
the cat on the tree is cleaning itself
and Peter on the roof a melancholic melody playing
a midsummer night somewhere somewhen
the sun by the moon replaced
in the air a cool breeze
and tonight it wont rain
(remembering the last midsummer days)
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intuitive
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(c) 7.March 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
intuitive assholes rule this world
fuck us all up with their intuitive stupidity
born to be an intuitive piece of shit
and intuitive sick of themselves
they come to get intuitive our money
and they are intuitive living in big houses
driving intuitive big fat cars
and intuitive don't care about anyone else
except other intuitive assholes
but only to fuck them up intuitive
'cause only the biggest motherfucker survives
to shit intuitive on us all
.oOo.....................................................................oOo.
(untitled)
(c) 1993 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
we got the deathtrap
we got the elimination
we are those who understand
we are the cruzification
morning blood is on the skies
silked memories died
there where have not been silent cries
there the angels gore
sighted breath and evil death
the god you obey is dead
and when you can't believe my words
you fool! you'll follow him
where nothing is can nothing be
and when you die you wont be free
no better world
no peaceful land
just nothingness
and you feel blind
killed emotions
killed your life
killed your god
killed
no survivers
death
dead
you
die!
(written in 1993 when my mother died,
I found it now by cleaning up one of my rooms and decided to publish it,
as it has been a very dark time for me back then...
I just re-lived all the things when I read this poem and saw all the memories
in my mind, and then I cried, but it is ok now, the memories will keep it
alive and so I remember THE most important person in my life, my mother,
she was allways around when I needed someone and then one day she died,
you just know what you have (had), when you lost it.)
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beautiful world
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(c) 08.03.1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
I like this beautiful world
built on cries and lies you've been told
isn't this a beautiful world
where they turn the sense of every word
and if you didn't fuck up someone today
then go for it, do it now
'cause tomorrow this someone maybe
would fuck up you
this isn't a game that we play
my dear, this is real life
and if you're not strong enough to fight
remember: noone matters for your cries
I like this beautiful world
where you can fall without finding hold
isn't this a beautiful world
where you can't believe the things people told
.oOo.....................................................................oOo.
rorrim
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(c) 11.03.1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
I am standing infront of myself
and I am smiling into my face
I am looking up at the sky
a voice vispers "everyone has to die"
I am playing with some bones in my hand
I am thinking of an unprejudieced land
I am living in the memories of today
they want to wake me, but I think "no way!"
and the stars are falling into my hands
like angels, maybe heavenly send
and a dead horse is standing right next to me
then it's asking "where's that land of the free?"
I am washing my hands in tears and blood
then it's raining into my soul and into my flat
I am standing infront of a flag
I am freezing 'cause it's cold in my heart
there's a gun, I remember it all
first a shoot and then I fall
I am playing with the lifes of my friends
I am thinking if you can see the sense
I am washing my memories out of my brain
try to forget. try to drive myself insane
at the bottom I am walking alone
I am seeing white walls, all at home
I am washing the memories out of my shirt
where's my trousers? today I'll come too late to work
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no, I don't want to lie
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(c) 11.03.1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
red snow is falling from the sky
dropping into my face like blood
a rabbit is eating a dead crow
the worm in the apple stopped to laugh
'cause the apple is rotten like old meat
and outside it is cold an frosty
a blue flower droppes into the sea
and green fishes are raining from a firecloud
an angel is crying behind in the corner
and darkness is falling into a lighted room
while the mirror falls down only your face is breaking
I am crying tears of blood in my memories
the dead crow is flying away with an apple
and the worm is eating the rabbit
someone is holding my hand
while I look around I see myself falling
I hit the road and break through a window
green blood is dropping out of my open wounds
then my mind is flying away
and there is no reflection anymore
when I look into the mirror
.oOo.....................................................................oOo.
und das Licht erblickte ihn
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(c) 11.03.1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
grün karrierte Röcke liegen nachdenklich ordentlich gefalten
neben ihrerselbst
wärend tote Vögel gegen Himmel fliegen um im Sonnenlicht
zu verglühen
Telefone leuten nicht mehr seit sie stromlos
in Ecken stehen
und doch höre ich die Klingeln leise meinen
Namen flüstern
wie die Geliebte bevor sie sich rauchend in ihre schützenden Gedanken
zurückzieht
der Apfel fällt vom Baum in den See der
Trostlosigkeit
wärend ich versuche meine Sorgen in der Frühstücksmilch
zu ertränken
fliegen grün-blaue Teddybären unbeeindruckt dessen lachend
durch die Luft
Gedanken schallen durch den Raum um in meinem Gedächnis
verloren zu gehen
Echos der Vergangenheit hallen wie helle Blitze durch meinen
Körper
zusammenzuckend liege ich unter dem Bett meiner
Erlebnisse
von Erinnerungen
erdrückt
und versuche vergessend die Zukunft zu
erblicken
bevor mich der Tod wie eine Ohnmacht
befällt
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gefühlslose Regungen - Teil 1
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
(c) 14.03.1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
Ameisen klettern die Wände empor
auf der Suche nach dem Morgen
und versenken ihre kleinen Körper
im trüben Wasser des Vergessens
um das Gestern nicht fürchten zu müssen
.oOo.....................................................................oOo.
denken
~~~~~~
(c) März 1996 Severin-Stephan Kittl (ReeBoK)
im Gedanken verlohren
saß er auf seinem Bett
und versuchte
sich zu erinnern
was er denken wollte
.oOo.....................................................................oOo.
I really hope you enjoyed reading it, if you liked them you are welcome
to contact me for exchanging impressions or just to get hold of more of
my feelings and thoughts... thank you! (In fact you are also welcome to
contact me if you didn't like them...)
.oOo.....................................................................oOo.
following files are available:
rbk-9345.lit 45k my poetry, lyrics and thoughts from 1993-1995
rbk-9601.lit 20k my first collection for 1996
rbk-9602.lit 24k my second collection for 1996
rbk-9603.lit 21k my third collection for 1996
rbk-9604.lit 22k abstract - my forth collection for 1996 (this file)